Showing posts with label side effects. Show all posts
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Monday, 16 June 2014

UPDATE JUNE 2014

UPDATE


I recently said to a friend that I felt she didn't need anti depressants (how dare me), I then apologised because if there is anything I can take away from my diagnosis is that ONLY YOU can make the decision to whether you need medication/how you cope and feel. No one knows how you feel or what goes on behind closed doors. 

People in the first few weeks of my diagnosis came at me with positive advice and stories of their auntie, grandmother, family member - twice removed and how they hadn't lost their hair or they continued to work. Although I know this was all well meant, using reinforced positivity to a shit situation. I think the advice should be - unless you've had a diagnosis - keep your advice to yourself. Cancer care is a complete mind field and up until last October I thought "one size fits all" which could not be further from the truth. Each treatment plan is completely individual depending on:


  • Size of tumour stage and sizing

  • Type of cancer

One major way of defining your type of breast cancer is whether or not it is:
  • Endocrine receptor (estrogen or progesterone receptor) positive
  • HER2 positive
  • Triple negative, not positive to receptors for estrogen, progesterone, or HER2
  • Triple positive, positive for estrogen receptors, progesterone receptors and HER2
These classifications provide doctors with valuable information about how the tumour acts and what kind of treatments may work best.
Hormone Receptor-Positive Breast Cancer
About 75% of all breast cancers are “ER positive.” They grow in response to the hormone oestrogen. About 65% of these are also “PR positive.” They grow in response to another hormone, progesterone.
If your breast cancer’s cells have a significant number of receptors for either oestrogen or progesterone, your cancer is considered hormone-receptor positive and likely to respond to endocrine therapies. 
Breast cancer tumours that are ER/PR-positive are 60% likely to respond to endocrine therapy/hormone therapy. Tumours that are ER/PR negative are only 5% to 10% likely to respond to endocrine/hormone therapy.
Endocrine therapies for breast cancer are treatments usually taken after surgery, chemotherapy, and/or radiation are finished. They are designed to help prevent recurrence of the disease by blocking the effects of oestrogen. They do this in one of several ways. 
·   The drug tamoxifen, taken by some women for up to five years after initial treatment for breast cancer, helps prevent recurrence by blocking the oestrogen receptors on breast cancer cells and preventing oestrogen from binding to them.

HER2-Positive Breast Cancer
In about 20% to 25% of breast cancers, the cancer cells make too much of a protein known as HER2/neu. These breast cancers tend to be much more aggressive and fast-growing.
For women with HER2-positive breast cancers, the drug Herceptin has been shown to dramatically reduce the risk of recurrence. It has now become standard treatment to give Herceptin along with adjuvant (after-surgery) chemotherapy in those with metastatic breast cancer. 

Has it spread to your lymph nodes? 

Lumpectomy or Mastectomy? Reconstruction?

Will this affect your ability to have children naturally? My Breast Cancer Nurse said that mother nature would "do one" during treatment and would not return. As she also said I would lose my hair, I think its fair to say I have to sit up and listen.


Voodoo Child

I received lots of advice from people who had not had cancer but again knew of a friend of a friend who had tried fairy dust to rhino farts to treat cancer, all worked of course.

The advice that positive thoughts will stop the hair loss clearly worked!

I was told that chemotherapy kills people and that I should try coffee enemas instead or cannabis oil THC, kill enzymes and become a vegan.

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      I have been cured of cancer naturally the way our bodies were created to heal themselves. So sad what people choose to put their bodies through instead of believing God. Never a sick day with lung cancer or during treatment. Tumour gone in nine months! Glad to see your post. So many people just do not know the truth or believe it. There are cures for cancer, but not with tormenting drugs! It is a business to make money torturing people to death! It is true, but so horrifying no one wants to believe it.
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          Hi Mavis Smith,
          Happy that you have cured yourself from lung cancer, I really need your email if you can easily provide me? I got some questions.
          Chris is always admire us for his efforts anyways.

      I've incorporated superfoods into my diet, but like any fruit and veg, surplus to requirements it's heading out of your system.

      I changed my diet, cutting down to one coffee a day, juicing and cutting out cheese or at least attempting to make up 20% only of my diet. However during each cycle when I couldn't taste diddly squat I had loaded mature cheddar on everything. My breast cancer nurse said at diagnosis (dx) that I could have been the healthiest person alive and still be sitting in front of her being given the news "you have breast cancer". This is because cancer does not discriminate. 

      I lost 3lbs and kept off during treatment. I did drop half a stone whilst in hospital, as I couldn't eat the first four days and after that point the food was just so vile. Since having Charlie DOG I have lost half a stone through exercise. It is better to maintain weight during treatment or lose weight through healthy eating than plan to lose a lot of weight. You are having steroids pumped through your body so be kind to yourself if you gain a stone or two.

      The things people say

      People: You won't lose your hair
      BCN (Breast Cancer Nurse): You will lose your hair

      Reality: NO hair





















      People: You can work through chemotherapy
      BCN: You are not to work during chemotherapy due to germs and low immune system delaying treatment

      Because this is so individual, some people may be able to work. I was unable to work due to the face to face contact with customers and not delaying my treatment plan due to the tumour being stage 3. In the first couple of months of my diagnosis I was not mentally strong enough to work and then past that point was the physical restrictions.

      Reality: Low immune system = Bilateral Pneumonia





















      People: You'll be ok during radiotherapy you'll be able to work
      BCN: Don't be surprised if you have days where you feel the batteries have been taken out. This lasts for about a month after your last zap is delivered.

      The reality
















      4.5 weeks of daily radiotherapy = fatigue
      My nipple turned brown/sunburnt and then peeled with the help of a miracle tube of hydro gel, the skin under my breast has broken down and the skin under my armpit is so sore that every time I roll over at night I wake up in pain. 

      During each cycle I went out with my friends and maintained normality. During these nights out I would often bump into people who would comment

      A: You look much better than I thought you would
      B: Does Cancer has a particular look? Should I be looking ill constantly?

      A: You look really great
      B: Shit, how bad did I look before?

      A: You must be feeling better if your drinking
      B: I'm sorry I haven't put my life on hold.

      A:Should you be drinking?
      B:Can I see your medical credentials?

      Some comments have infuriated me, which I am not prepared to share. 


      From head to toe - changes to your body 

      during treatment and after

      Head/scalp

      Before your hair starts falling out you may 

      experience a very tender and sore scalp, this 

      is the hair follicles giving up the ghost. I 

      wore a soft cotton jersey cap during this 

      time and massaged in Argan oil.

      Skin

      During chemo cycles 1-3 my skin had a "chemo 

      glow" and was flawless, as treatment 

      continued from 3-6 it became very dry.

      Eyebrows

      My eyebrows thinned, so all the thick long 

      hairs fell out leaving fine stumpy hairs.

      Eyelashes

      My eyelashes fell out leaving a handful on 

      each eye. They fell out from the outside in.

      Eyes
      Can become very dry and itchy

      Nose
      Started running constantly when the nasal 

      hairs disappeared

      Mouth
      Dry mouth (current)


      The lining of the roof of my mouth peeled off 

      leaving balls of skin attached to the roof of 

      my mouth (Internal skin peeling)


      Nails - current (finger nails and toenails)

      Nail changes can affect all or some of both 

      the fingernails and toenails. Taxanes, 

      anthracyclines, epidermal growth factor 

      receptor inhibitors and small molecule 

      multikinase inhibitors are the 

      chemotherapeutic drugs most commonly 

      associated with nail changes

      Beau lines 
      The type and severity of nail changes vary 
      depending on the drug, dose, duration and 
      frequency of treatment, the affected nail 
      structure, and the environmental factors.
      Hand/ Arms

      Dry skin

      hair loss and now my hair has returned they have grown back all looped and ingrowing, particularly lady garden and leg hairs.

      Cording (current)

      The vein in my left arm is stretched taught which means that I can't over stretch my arm without it hurting. I have pain in my left wrist which hurts if lightly tapped. It has occurred in my treatment arm, where all blood tests, injections, IV fluids and chemotherapy have been administered. I can not have any tattoos or injections in my right arm EVER due to the removal of my Sentinel Lymph node http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sentinel_lymph_node and risk of lymphoedema

      Auxiliary Web Syndrome: Cording















      Hip Joint Pain (current)
      I had a bone scan last week where I discovered that I am claustrophobic. I really don't like the CT scanner! From long periods of sitting to standing I am doubled up in pain and stiffness from the hip joint. In the evenings I shuffle across the living room. So I'm currently waiting on the findings of the report. 

      When I received my diagnosis I bought this book, which in parts resonated and in others scared the shit out of me. I'm looking forward to re reading it, now I'm almost out of active treatment. Lisa unfortunately died and was diagnosed with secondary incurable cancer as it returned in her bones.


















      But while I lie on the radiotherapy bed, I smile, because Lisa was right - this is CRAP FM.


      Monday, 31 March 2014

      FEC #5


      Monday 31st March 2014

      The Penultimate


      I got to pick my seat today, a window seat...this is how I roll.......



      Almost mopped up all the rogue Cancer cells

      This is why I had a sleepless night last night, still awake at 04:10 am and all down to the cannula
      I don't know why I worried so much, I could hardly feel it. Thank you chemo nurse Caroline.

      If you look closely all my nails are striped 


      Out with the old

      and in with the new

      Friday, 28 March 2014

      The quiet before the storm

      Dear Diary



      Last FEC #4  Thursday 13th February - 6th of March (FEC 4 Cycle)

      Hospital admission Tuesday 4th of March

      Discharged Thursday 13th of March

      Next FEC chemo cycle # 5 Monday 31st of March - reduced dose from 100% down to 75%


      *
      My Oncologist postponed my next treatment by 3 weeks(a whole cycle behind)to ensure that my body had recovered from the IV antibiotics and hospital stay. 

      No evil drugs killing off the healthy cells in your body for 3 weeks and a mini break mentally = appearance of hair (collar & cuffs).


      Which is a temporary addition as the E in FEC is making a come back on Monday. For future reference, I'm happy that it appears to grow fast.

      *
      I went to the GP's this week. He said `I suspect this isn't a life choice, I mean you haven't been out and bought a pair of Doctor Martins have you?' (after taking off my woolly hat). I was glad to see a Doctor with a sense of humour and able to register how far he could push it. 

      Anyway I went to discuss my rash, the one I was discharged from hospital with. The GP suspects it is a reaction to the IV antibiotics. So lets compile a list of the things I'm allergic too ......It appears to be growing.

      I also asked for medication for the reduction of keloid scarring for my booby and some heavy duty cream for my evil little `friends' that appear through times of constipation and diarrhoea.


      The pharmacist said that due to manufacturers delay she would not be able to complete my prescription today. She asked me if it was urgent. I lovingly told her that I had a lumpectomy in October and that the cream was to reduce the raised keloid scarring. At some point during `my moment' I realised she actually meant the cream for my little friends. 

      http://www.nhs.uk/Livewell/skin/Pages/Keloidscarring.aspx



      Let me introduce to you, my keloid scar, a waving Snowman. I had chicken pox (poulet pox) at 15 on the French Exchange and ended up being on house arrest, bathing in soothing medication and having a thermometer inserted into my bum (and missed all the parties).

      AND then the chicken pox scar grew .


      *
      I reluctantly registered with the DWP for a Personal Independent Payment but discovered that they have an incorrect date of birth for me and now it's up to me to prove to them that I am right. I am not well enough at the moment to be faffing around with producing a birth certificate, so the claim has been pulled. Bit ironic really as PIPs is the replacement of Disability Living Allowance and in place for people that often struggle with daily living activities and mobility. 

      *
      I went to have my bloods taken today to ensure my immune system is ready for the onslaught on Monday and I have cording of the veins, this is where the veins feel hard and `cord' like, the veins lose their elasticity and feel tight, which makes your treatment arm sore, like you've had a couple of Chinese burns, the E out of the FEC ruins/damages the veins (Mr E is quite a twisted piece of work). My veins will gradually return to normal in the future.
      I have had this for a while, but the nurse clearly noticed it today, in trying to bleed me dry.


      *****
      For anyone that missed this programme on BBC 3 please follow this link:

      http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b03zf3tg/Kris_Dying_to_Live/

      It's available to watch until Wednesday 2nd of April.

      and then you can watch this thank you from Kris founder of Coppafeel #RETHINKCANCER

      http://vimeo.com/90325680

      http://coppafeel.org/





      Friday, 14 March 2014

      Back from the Brink

      At 6pm on Tuesday March 4th, we contacted the oncology helpline as I was unable to breathe, couldn't mobilise from bed and still had a high temperature and we felt that I needed to be in hospital. We waited for the paramedics to arrive and was hooked up to oxygen and taken in the ambulance to AMU and wheeled into a private room where once again I had a cannula fitted and blood taken to ensure I wasn't experiencing neutropenia.

      http://www.cdc.gov/cancer/preventinfections/pdf/neutropenia.pdf 

      A junior doctor performed the Oxygen Saturation Test/Arterial Blood Gas Test - where the arterial blood can be tested for oxygen levels and blood is drawn from the artery rather than the vein.

      As soon as my blood tests were returned as normal (and not prone to infections) I was moved onto the main ward of AMU and then moved to 23N. I came into hospital able to mobilise to the toilet to being unable to mobilise from the bed to a commode without oxygen and with the help of staff. I was put on IV (drip)antibiotics 3-4 times a day which unfortunately were not strong enough to clear any infection and therefore my health was deteriorating and I became incredibly ill even though I was in hospital. It took 3 days to arrange a CT scan as the doctors suspected a blood clot to the left lung as the x-ray on arrival on both Friday and Tuesday had identified shadowing to the left lower lung. The lung consultant visited me on ward 23N on Friday to explain that he was unhappy with the anti-biotics I was on and that they would not shift any infection I had. He explained that he was not happy with the diagnosis given following the CT scan and said that if he was to believe the extensive shadowing to both lungs on the images, I would actually be in intensive care. He said that if you are unable to breathe during the CT scan this kind of imaging appears. He said that I would be transferred onto the respiratory ward and placed onto stronger antibiotics to clear the infection.  I was transferred at 5:30 on Friday evening. By Monday/Tuesday I was able to walk to the toilet with oxygen, which felt like a huge achievement and by this stage I was being treated for bilateral pneumonia.

      The consultant was unsure to whether I had glass effect shadowing to the lungs due to the chemotherapy drugs but the oncologist had already said that FEC drugs usually are not connected to lung damage/shadowing. 







      During my stay in hospital all injections, cannulas fitted and blood has had to be taken from the left arm (right arm out of bounds due to lumpectomy and possible lymphoedema)and trying to find a vein they could use started to become problematic, especially as the doctor popped the only vein she could find. 

      http://www.macmillan.org.uk/Cancerinformation/Livingwithandaftercancer/Symptomssideeffects/Lymphoedema/Lymphoedema.aspx





















      Prior to discharge I was able to see my oncologist and consultant to discuss chemotherapy. On Tuesday they discussed my case at the Multi Disciplinary meeting (MDT) and one consideration was that maybe I am allergic to the chemotherapy drugs, however this is not conclusive as I breezed through cycle 1-3. We discussed reducing the dosage from 100% down to 75% on cycle 5 and review the situation prior to cycle #6 and hope I am not allergic and end up back in hospital for 9 days. My breast cancer specialist nurse said that not many people are able to sustain treatment on 100% and so 4 cycles at the highest dose was good going. 

      I do not have the added bonus in taking tablets as a `backup' plan for the next 5 years post treatment and as chemotherapy and radiotherapy are the only course of treatment available we want to continue to increase the survival rate and try and stave off a recurrence in the future. 

      Hubby bought me some new PJ's

















      I am now back at home with a rash to both arms
      BUT at least I can breathe, eat healthily and have a decent wash.















      My next appointment at the chemotherapy day centre is Monday 31st of March for cycle#5 which is 3 weeks and 3 days later than planned, which allows my body enough time to recover from the 9 days in hospital. 

      In 6 weeks time I need to attend hospital for an x-ray to check on shadowing on the lungs and the progress of recovery.



      P.s


      Dear Tami
       
      Thank you very much for your entry to our competition to be a Vita blogger. We received almost 100 applications and the standard was very high so it has been a very difficult process deciding who our new bloggers will be.
       
      We have tried to pick winners who have a range of different breast cancer experiences as well as being skilled writers. That meant we have had to overlook some candidates who were excellent writers. Unfortunately, although your blog was on our final shortlist, it was not chosen as one of the winning entries but we wish you every success with your writing in future.
       
      Best wishes
       
      Pete
       
      Pete Coles
      Editor
      Breast Cancer Care
      pete.coles@breastcancercare.org.uk