Look Good Feel Better

http://www.lookgoodfeelbetter.co.uk/

I have the most fabtabulous make up goody bag from my afternoon workshop at The Hamar Centre and I am a very proud owner of a Chanel lipgloss!

The Look Good Feel Better workshop lasts for 2 hours and you follow a trained Macmillan beautician in the art of applying make up with 9 other women all affected by cancer and hair loss. Some with eyelashes, eyebrows and hair and some without. An assortment of women in hats and wigs. I am wearing my cotton jersey hat again because .......

My goody bag: Nivea, Chanel, No 7, Clinique, Estee Lauder, Max Factor

My head this week has been really aching and as I know when I initially lost my hair, it is from the chemotherapy drugs affecting the hair follicles. The hairs are lifting out of my scalp and so some hairs appear quite long, when in fact they are on there way out! I've also lost the end of my eyebrows again. BUT I am happy in that I know how fast my hair grows.

Because I had a delayed cycle and 4 weeks behind schedule, my body has been tricked into thinking my treatment has finished - so my 6th cycle is almost like my second cycle and it was between cycle 1 and cycle 2 that I had a very sore and hot head and suffered the main hair loss.

I would highly recommend the LGFB workshop and to secure a place asap. I booked 2 weeks before Christmas! They also have a cancellation list. I had been contacted twice previously due to people cancelling, but first time was on the wrong week (where I need to avoid people and germs)and the second time I was an inpatient in hospital :(
However it was worth the wait :)

Benefit Perfume (Excited MUCH)

I have used cleanser, toner, moisturiser, blemish cream, colour corrector, eyeshadow, eyeliner and lipgloss.

Here is my selfie.

Had a phone call this morning from the Lingen Davies Centre. I have been called in for a CT scan, where drugs are flushed through a cannular that makes you feel like you've wet yourself (I double check everytime)and a NHS tattoo booked for 9am on Thursday. Someone said the tattoo looks like a blackhead!

Look Good Feel Better Workshop (LGFB)

The only real `cancer` thing I wanted to do was to book a place on the Look Good Feel Better Workshop http://www.lookgoodfeelbetter.co.uk/

Here are a couple of quotes, it sounds just .... mmm fluffy clouds

`The workshops are about having fun. They are informal, relaxed and informative, giving people a chance to meet others in a similar situation. It's a time for a woman to focus on herself and not her illness'

`I never thought of myself as much of a make- up person - I can't believe how brilliant I feel and look after just two hours. I can't wait to show my family'

This I thought would help in that - I could return to work in April and not look like I have cancer. Hair growth does not tend to return until your last chemotherapy treatment. 

 I'm actually thinking of returning to work minus wig, eyebrows, eyelashes etc, because surely the problem is in other people's perception and not my own, RIGHT - I know I'm being obtuse BUT I am ******* tired, very angry and ever so slightly annoyed + I have horrendous mouth ulcers to go with the bad attitude.

Anyway I contacted my local centre and the next available date is April ffs, REALLY? I am now on the cancellation list in case anything becomes available nearer to me loosing my hair - ALL HAIR- YES 

BODY HAIR TOO. 

I currently have a very healthy lady garden BUT alas this is apparently one of the first things to go. 

I asked about the complementary therapies they have on offer - reflexology, reiki, aromatherapy. 

And .... as it happens this is no longer available. 

BUT I can attend a COFFEE MORNING which is odd because coffee is not on the greatest things to drink on the `fuck you` cancer list.

So when I joked about drawing my eyebrows on with various coloured felt tip pens or a Sharpie or two ...... 

Did I mention I'm having a bad day?